Loving somebody older

I don't deny that once I had in love with a mature guy, and I felt that mature guy is ok for me because he is financially stable and emotionally well managed simply also because he is equipped with car and house. The most important thing is he treated you good, your sis good and your family good. Plus  he is a Soka member, a soon-2-be leader that is down to earth, passionately persisting in kosen rufu. I had witnessed his passion in sharing Buddhism and joyfully giving encouragement. He is indeed a trustworthy man, a near to perfect guy with good hygiene and disciplined diet, a healthy and saving man!

But the problem is now my sister kind of having real disaster with an old guy whom is 31years old, a cycle older than her, and the point is she is just broke up with her bf likewise to the old guy too. Ok, maybe it's rude to call him old guy but he is not young to my sister, by the way there is no mean of offense. And it happened that this guy without acknowledging my mother had brought out my sister to other place until late night, even with his position as a Soka member. This is not a good model where there are rules to bring home a YWD before they go back too late at night. This has worried my mother and friends around. It has becoming serious till extent of we need to monitor their progress and warn the both parties indirectly to prevent things get worsen. This is not a blessed relationship where the age had differed so greatly.

To somebody that u love you have to grab it and do it fairly, take the opportunity and make it success=)

These two days

Yesterday was the biotech dinner, held at the Kuching Banquet restaurant. Was performing in the dance MY MY from Korean group, and was being introduced to sing on stage. There were happy, awkward and yet excited moments that couldn't be forgotten. Imprinted in my memory forever~~

There were Asuka, Carlmond, Snow, Jialee and me performed on that night, we grouped under the name of "Last minute" which was true, since there were only 2 days of practice. Though we had learnt and recalled smoothly the steps, however, the minute on the stage was different, it is always the case, where being at stage, the mind started gone blank and you have totally no idea what's next step. Oh My God, there were we, just proceed and danced with no united steps, each dance individually, lack of synchronization. The most awkward was not other than I wanted to split and i just realized i have made a huge sound that prone others think someone fell down. Silly and funny~, worst is that it was my idea, yet I was not confident to do so, and were moving it slowly plus the emotion was bitter. Okie, done with this story.

Next is the singing. I had no idea why Kaith wanted to ask me go join LaiLing sing on the stage. Luckily I was able to persuade Jennifer and Amber went on stage along and sang in a group of four. There were two songs sang by us, the Chinese song was not nice for me, because I was not able to see the screen clearly, and the English song was better compared to English song because at least I could see. Thanks to Lailing and both of them, we made it. The most exciting and touched part was that there were five men went on stage to give us flowers. Oh My goodness, was too sweet~!! i LIKE THEM MOST=)

The night was a celebrity night for me, many wore nicely and elegantly, was a great night where Dr E made a peas when capturing pictures with us, he even introduced us selfie, unbelievable~! Those pictures were so gorgeous (being all of us smiled so sunshine-ly). I believed I had made a great effort in dressing and took many pictures with friends too. Although Im not a picture taking person, but I managed to be appeared in pictures which is not bad for me, Thanks wow~

A day before that was a Ponggal night where all of our IHMG lab people were attending that, due to Indian friends of us. Thanks Priya for the henna and lengha, I had been commented that I wore like a princess, Mary was a Bollywood star and Jialee was simply pretty~!! Our seniors were undoubtedly nice and gorgeous too, a blessed night for us. The food was less, but we enjoyed it. Nice overall. Thumbs up for the Indians, who had to wear these heavy sarees and custom dresses, the earrings and necklaces were simply heavy and breathtaking.

The conclusion for this week: these days I had done a lot of make up on my face, my face look pale and hurt, but I had gained lots of experiences and journeys that made up exciting pages to my life. I love it=)

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

This phrase hit me once I done crying, walking back to faculty. This is a bad day ever that I had failed to get results of RE digestion. The bands are faint what else I should do if I was not allowed to do pcr? This is freaking damn bad!! I can't proceed without pcr u know?! Could I change supervisor or lab or seniors? Omg now it was too late thinking on this. I have tried to extent of tired to strive and struggle for results, que sera sera, but if so how am I suppose to hand in reports without data? How to make thesis thick enough?

This is driving me crazy cause I failed! I am useless! Once I was the top in the lab, now I was the worst I suppose. I was so afraid of presentation terribly ! Omg~~ but I never lose hope, hopefully I can get good one tomorrow=)

Seeing people happily go to lab and back from lab, enjoy their holidays by going back hometown, going to eat and catch up movies, what are we now? Where are we now? We are so frustrated that even we work harder than those around us, even we tried so many times with same and adjusted condition, things aren't going better either.

Most guiltily we still have to entertain and bring engaged to seniors' outings even we hmwushed not to. They are kind by the way, just that they are not considering much on our progress and emotion, just wish they could be more comprehensive to us.

These days we don't dare to enjoy so much, rather we spent time to troubleshot problems and figure out what should be done in circumstances of things running out. We have to be resourceful and not to waste too much of reagents and do it wisely.

There are things to be improved since then and until now. If we could work separately and learn independence in working rather than waiting for each other and doing all together, then would the results be better as the badge contamination could be prevented, and somebody is actually at more outside condition to see things clearly. We have strong team spirit but sometimes we worked dragged and too dependable on each other. This is the things that I would like to improve for all of us but have to work smart=)

Choice

Missed this blog so badly, I am so engaged in lab work recently. Yesterday we had a meeting with Dr E and masters. We all discussed on the progress, which we had been dragged so far behind as compared to others' progress. We had failed in cloning, were gone through troubleshooting by using another badge of Laix plate which likewise couldn't give blue colonies, checked back ligation products which sadly indicates that the ligation of vector and insert did not take place. We also doubt on the competent cells' quality as they were produced since 2008. As a whole story tells here is that we are not confident of our result and skills anymore. Dr E and masters, undoubtedly were rather disappointed, although they did not really show the face to us. Dr E is so kind, that he manages to comfort and give neutral comments which makes us feel warm at the particular moments. Sooner after that, back to masters, they are the ones throwing all bad words and push us to reality. This is them, this is our lab,our work. After all, we are still the one be responsible to our FYP.

After the meeting, we had a small sub-meet with Stella, which she said she would help us to do the project now. First heard of this, we suppose this act is to the extent of their frustrated act. They could not bear it anymore, as they themselves are working pretty fine to get results with no errors, and we just out of ideas, could not generate data in the so long trial period. What would be the problem? And now, we have her to help us, what should we feel? Happy or sad? If she manages to get results, means our human error is the factor that cause the failure of us all the time; in contrary, if she could not get results, we will be discouraged and disappoint. I have ever experienced it, even Kherlee helped me, I still have one naughty gene, which insist not showing up all the while.

Are we too weak? Why are we so miserable? My roommate, CH she will finish her project soon in one more week, two more steps. I always think of how nice if we choose another titles, we could have steadily advanced through stages to get results already, like her, like Dr Leaw's lab.Next time, the advice to juniors of taking FYP, please choose your lab, your masters, rather than your supervisor and the titles. Titles of interest should come in last, if the masters nice, your chances of getting results and completing projects would be doubly high. Don't be so naive to choose titles first, any titles could just grow your interest if you do it smoothly~!