Success

Today not a succeeded for my FYP, but is succeeding for my menstruation to come, after 5 months of missing it. Kind of forgetting how it feels being a lady. This is really exciting, than anything else. It is believed that hormonal change and disruption is due to stress and burden, due to freaking FYP too.

Not to blame everything to FYP, but at least I felt this year was indulged into the FYP trauma, having a horror of doing it, because even we tried freaking hard, with genes and cell lines, with various temperature to adjust in optimization, not only me, but four of us, still think that our project is kind of challenging. In certain extent, it is good as we could trained ourselves, however, due to time constraint, we till this far still not able to produce presentable data could have induced immeasurable stress to us, makes us tense up. Moreover, there are seniors being so mean to us, strict and not liking us. Everyday, we just feel like reluctant to go lab, to face the uncountable failures. Even an iron man could not stand it longer.

Success is a just far too away for me, simply because I do not have the luck. But I have preserved, I tried hard, I do not mind losing, but I wanted to achieve success at the end. So, let's see how I end up with.

While chanting today, there was a thing that came across my mind which If we have a high and noble mission and targets in life, our life could not bother much by little problems, which have been magnified by us from the size of sand into basketball. So, set sail with noble goals in life, make great vision, that could bring you to indestructible ichinen and victories that follows.