Apology

Today is the worst day that hit me, hit Mary. Both of us were being questioned on the blackmailing thing by PG, that was the dear PE whom borrowed us the used stock of Taq Pol and came to threaten us with barter exchange with cell culture tubes in return. We had predicted this would happen to us as yesterday we felt some tension from the PG from both labs. And we had too, prepared some scenarios where we could answer with uniform, and consistent answers at yesterday's night. This is the worst-to-worst senario that happened out of our prediction. Two PG and PE were sitting at one side, and we had 2 PG and 4 UG sitting at the other side, confronting each other, but the thing is within PG and UG rather than fish lab and immuno lab. This is the worst situation and we never want it to happen, it happened just too fast and unprepared. Their eyes were killing me, they stayed at me with questioning sight, burning me, and yet I was calm, no expression because I couldn't make one.

Only me and mary know the clearest of the situation, because it was really both of us to borrow and rush here and there to get the Taq. Recalled back, I and mary first went to fish lab and asked Jc, then Jc asked us to get from PE whom is the assistant of the lab after SL.Then we asked him and in return he wants something from our lab, knowing the location of cell culture plates, asked us to bring 2 packs for him. We were scared and took it lightly and leaved. Then in lift, we met with Pn Fazia, who is my mentor, I saw she is expecting, though I don't really want to trouble her I came to ask her. I sincerely hope she is fine with this. She agreed to give us the  Taq if her students have enough of it. No consulting masters as she don't have any. We were pleased and went to her lab, who knows met by ST friend's who is RA of Dr Sam. She has responsibilities over Pn Fazia students I suppose, which she approached me and ask my intention. With hesitate, I told her carefully on the truth. But we didn't take any from them as there was no tubes to fill. Later we went back with the used Taq given by fish people, and gave to rest of two UG whom are on way of mixing. Bad news spread fast. Within half an hour, ST came to us with the tube of Taq and warned us that she knew we tried to borrow from Dr Sam'a lab, but we explained that we just asked not taken any, which is true. This might leave her bad image of us about the Taq matter.

Today, when they confronted us, I and Mary confessed. The most shocking part came to us is ST was laughing by the time they questioned us, gosh! What is happening to her? She laughed, don't she remembered how we help her around in the lab, advise her on the matters, especially primer designing, how we fetch her to go and fro from gathering to school? How could she not help us, but laughing at us, waiting to see us being chopped on board? This image clearly captured into my head,  I guess I would never forget about this. She was disliked by me now, the way she acts is double faced, whichever side is winning, her head will be counted in there, so we are losing now, she stepped outside and laughed.

The way KL and SC handled are quite generous to us, although they used to scold us, act cool to us, warn us, but this moment, they are truthfully angry and worrying us. Unlike ST whom just take advantage on us to help her do gel, take protocol from us and so on.  The saddest part is Dr E was totally disappointed by our acts, and yet he appreciated my honesty. When he came in 3pm, the first question he asked us on explaining the situation, I  bravely stood up and confessed everything that it was my idea. And supplemented by Mary, I really appreciate her, as a true friend and comrade. Dr accepted our apologies and he acted so kind to remind, warm and spoke to us. He was really good, I like him so much he is the generous, humble man that be the outstanding lecturer  in this faculty.But his lab has so many demon PG, makes us not liking it that much.

So whatever over should be called to end, as we had done every apologies we could, to masters and Dr E. They had indeed helped us not to blow things big that cause disciplinary actions towards us.  Guess it stops here. End of story, I am glad I still in pieces.