Masks

Now KL has been covered by bad air, besides bad weather, the land has also seemed to be polluted by news such as A' prison news, MH, the BOMOH, and the N's 1 bought for chicken and so on. There are lots of bad things hit this beloved and harmony country that smeared the reputation of HER.

What could that be? Would that a sign of the karma that people are in wrong perception of faith and religion? Or simply it is the sign where we should make a change? People often wear themselves a mask in facing the crowd, even an ugliest man can act so gentlemen, even a flower-hearted man can pretend to be loving you so much, even the people whom smile at you could betray and whistleblowed on things that dragged you into miserable, what more in politics?

These days, I had been observing, observe the true and fake people, observe the shine and dim people, always the true and bright ones be valued much in society. I wanted to be a person true to the root, inspire others to be the same. I don't like wearing masks, but recently, while in progress of doing FYP, I found myself to be really dishonest and naughty to certain extent, which exceed my boundaries. Sometimes, I will wear masks to entertain those things which are not interested, for the sake of getting their favorite, this is not right, but being part of society, this attitude of not pissing people off though you don't like them is important! I have met few people in such in my final semester that really pissed me off, for sure, occasionally I would return them back to the masked face, but personally this is not my principle, I used to be very frank in talking. However, this culture of mine had altered because I had learnt lessons in recent. To ask a favor from others, you have to be really down humble and nice even you don't and are not as such. The situation can really shape a person, wield a person to be strong or break them into pieces. This is truth! For the sake of getting results, I ever think of cheating, I ever think of photoshop. out of controlled,  a seed of cheating was bored into my mind, how could that be? In the past, I don't even encourage myself to get tips, to cheat in exam, and allow others to. Now, my principles just gone, no-no, this can't be, I shall look back and find myself.

Early in the morning, when chanting, I felt my soul crying, craving so much and prayed for getting bands~!! I was totally helpless, in facing the people in lab, projects in lab and not even into mood to class. I was ruined by my projects. Please don't think I ironed woman, don't think I am so strong, instead, deep inside my hearts was full of thorns and holes.

However, one thing that I proud to myself is I like to help others, I enjoy the feelings of being a heroine, I indulge into independence, which I could be confident to say that I have faith to change, for this FYP, there must be magic at the end, that could bring us through hard times.