Craving

This is what I feel now, craving for food, in the middle of the night. Just now was rushing on assignments, moments before still struggling whether or not eat something, is hard to make a decision, since eating this late would not be any good.

Discussion on the student house's issue was held in SD house just now, thanks to KOK. T for sharing us on peace proposal, which speaks of value-creating. What is value creating? Basically, it is a call for ourself to reconstruct ourselves by overcoming weaknesses, and prepare to maximize our potential, goes beyond our limit, push through boundaries, take up sufferings of others, and help them. Supposedly, ideally this is the mission of our lives.

How many times we have been bombarded with this concept, and yet we forget, we de-priorities, we ignore the existence of this? I still remember this was once the goal of my study, of my striving, however, as time goes on, things happen to crush our confidence, crush out faith, I am no longer hopeful and as bright as others would think, yet I am still holding on this, not letting go, wish that someday I could go back to me, a bright side of me=)

Hope is everything, as what KOK. t shared us on Mendela's quote "Hope is powerful weapon even though nothing's remain", how to achieve hope? By acquiring wisdom, mastering our mind. How could that be done? By education, for people whom read a lot, they are confident, and are seeing things in global scale, since this universe is big, no such a thing that comes wouldn't pass, nothing could be trapped anyway, people who read a lot are open minded, are productive, are well in expressing, these are people whom in line with human development. Malala, a girl who had once been threatened by terrorist by her age of 15 years old, voiced up at the UN meet with " a pen, a book, a child, a teacher, can change the world", I could say, the girl was brave, hopeful and is surely an awesome noble person in years to come. What more to me, an undergraduate, from a blessed family and country, with such good and secured environment, what had I been done, contribute to this society?

Now, I would say I am hungry and craving for happiness. Yesterday morning a flight MH370 had been reported missing from the sky. Right before the day, was the news of Dr Anwar. I that bothers our country. Too much sad and unfair that hit us, let us not been ruined by disappointment, instead fuel with more hope, and pray for a better future. People with easy containment is always blessed and fortunate. At least I believe to this extent could make me more relief and grounded. This afternoon, I had gone though a video describing what Japanese people wrote on a crushing plane back in 1977. Those are comments to their family, to their loved ones, to their unfinished business, they accepted and prayed for it. What left them the most is the "not-able-to-be", this is the regret feeling that I had ever experienced, during the passing of my dad. That was really moved me, a lot of things happen to be so sudden that we might never have chance to say goodbye, to conclude in a full stop for everything, so many things that we missed could never been able to replace, that's it.

So treat every day as last day, treat every moment as last resolve, left no remain, to utilize our time, live hopeful and fulfilled days ahead.